Thursday, July 4, 2013

Happy Birthday Wally




The moment had arrived.  Today marks the day.  The shots had already been fired; the action taken.  Standing on creaking boards of a rural bridge, dirty hands of a few simple folk swept in the passion of fighting for what was precious, took a stand—shouting defiance against the most powerful imperial power in the world.  A movement undertaken that carried a consequence dire.  The action had passed.  What was needed now was an artist. 
 
A man who could take the ideal and make it actual, the job was given.  But to who?  The exemplar of the colonies-Benjamin Franklin?  Though flattered, he declined.   Then who?  Ben pointed to a reclusive ruddy redhead in the back, a representative from Virginia; Thomas Jefferson.   He was the artist whose time had come.

Ideal to actual. 

On this day, in Jefferson City, Missouri another defiant fist rose.  It was a day of birth.

Ideal to actual.

Begin all things at the beginning.  I first met him when I was in fourth grade.  He entered the classroom resembling the peddlers of old more than a teacher.  In front of him he pushed a well organized but well worn cart.  Though the supplies seemed ready to burst asunder at the slightest movement, Wally was the consummate alchemist.  He strove to light the passion of expression within his students.  Well trained hands deftly moved beginning the controlled explosion known only as Wally Linebarger.  Against the beige wells of the classroom, Wally embodied the colors he sought to express.  For a teacher, Wally was a man who exuded the passion of compassion. 

If any artist did, I could see Wally starting with a black canvass.  A setting of controlled chaos would wait while Wally shouted forth life with a myriad of brilliant pastels.  Fevered movements manic in desperation to emplace and capture dreams and visions.  Conjuring from the colors the ability not to capture life, Wally strove to vibrantly exude an unbridled fervor.  Variance in thickness of paint, in breath of the breath of his stroke, the experimental twist, a subtle inclusion, diffusion of design, the rhythm of the seen movement in the dance of the colors; any and everything would be used by Wally to express his visions.

Upon first glance, his work spoke, though the communication affected audiences differently.   The briefest of glances might cause the some viewer to see only delusional scribbling, whereas others might find an empathic beauty.  Tossed on the vibrant sea present sometimes subtle, sometimes suffocating, some might become lost in the power of his work.  His art did speak, even if one dismissed, they would later hear its subtle whisper.

Ideal to actual.

As an artist, Wally did not limit himself in mediums.  Beyond building up the Art Department from nothing, Wally feverishly produced the demands of his muses.  Though his strength lay in painting, he did not hesitate to follow his muses in music, and in the crafting the lumps of clay his students were, into fine women and men.   His art room provided a sanctum were the students knew they were accepted, blemishes and all.  As this of course was during those lovely teenage years where every blemish was felt to be a gaping wound obvious to all, Wally’s counsel allowed a safe place to heal… to regenerate.  But beyond being a place for regeneration, Wally also used this time to draw the toxins of spirit.  Just as in his art, he carefully and expertly reinforced the spirit of his lambs so that they could survive the world of wolves that is High School.  As Wally continued to work there, and I continued to take classes, Wally was on the periphery of my High school scholarship.    

Ideal to actual.

The first two years, my friendship with Wally Linebarger was limited.  Not on purpose mind you, I just wasn’t in any of his art classes.  I wasn’t an ‘art person.’  I would see their work and displays.  I remember being amazed .  His students work was as different as the artists that created them.  The striking multilayered of Brent Johnson’s work, the lensed perfection of Don Relyea, the demanding design of Jonathan Ingram, the precision of Jon Buell, the incorporation of multiplicity of times and topics in O.J.’s work, or even the subtle soft curve of Melissa Twomey’s ink; all was glorious works made by impassioned artists.  Passion bequeathed by Wally.  Me and the misfit group of merry pranksters who defied cliques were only able to observe.         

During my junior year I was the lead in our schools first musical:  Fiddler on the Roof.  Quick to recognize my talent, I was readily given the position after an audition.  Wally was a whirlwind that gave all his energy to see the play come to a success.  Some students, such as Dawn Brothers worked exhaustively to construct the sets while the fingers of David Fandrich graced his violin.  Wally did not hesitate to help wherever needed to breath passion into the play.  Unceasingly he gave his energy to the cast and crew when they were beset by fatigue and exhaustion.  Was he successful?  On opening night not an eye was dry as Leslie Williams and I came to Goldie and Tevye’s simplistic conclusion that “…after twenty-five years, it’s nice to know.”  The musical was such a success… they had to do another one the next year.   Wally did not hesitate to accept another labor of love.

Ideal to actual.

I graduated .  The lessons, especially on how to inspire people remained.  The care, nurturing, and excitement I try to bring to my students today in helping them to achieve their best took root.

Ideal to actual. 

Then came the announcement.  Wally was homosexual.  As I was off at college, I knew none of this.  Though he had never been involved with a student, the reaction of a school in the early 90s was typical.

            Named heretic, madman, walls were built to keep him out.  God bless academia.  A lovely environ where it is discovered all too quickly that true friends stab you from the front.  The expelled gulag took his passion elsewhere.  Professionally, he continued to strive to make the ideal actual.  New art was created.  New schools benefited and then let him go.  New schools were created.  New schools floundered.  Socially, like some kids who become inebriated with the liberation of going off to college, Wally made movements with consequences dire.   Just as the revolutionary forefathers, everything was slowly stripped away.  As Thomas Pain observed in The American Crisis, the summer soldier became the winter soldier.  Like the American army at Valley Forge, his winter quarters were held in Jefferson City.

            Ideal to actual.

            But his Winter Quarters are over.  He will still have many battles ahead of him.  Professionally his legacy is carried on.  His daughters excel at their careers.  Many of his former students have found incredible and profitable outlets for utilizing their skills at art.  Skills that were ingrained, and an eye given to see the new by Wally Linebarger.  As for Wally he has a room set aside.  The easel sits, supplies are set, his hands eagerly await while he listens: he listens for the paint to speak to him.  Waiting for the moment. 

            Ideal to actual.    

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Intermission / The Dance


Intermission


A  moment
Of frozen kenetic
Pulsing electric
An intermission
The dropping of a shoe
The wait for the New
Year count down
Five...
...four...
...Three...
Two...

Or
The frozen space
Between 
Closed eyes
Leaning forth
The press for contact
Energy released
In Five...
...Four...
...Three...
...Two...


One


The Dance

 
In Asphalt fields
Where Buildings took root

He waited

Patiently

Eagerly
For her
Heart pulsed
Til
Headlights lit the way
Crushing darkness
Securing her passage
In the greeting
Of her beating
Heart
The Dance began

Life exploded
From metal shape
As the glory of
Form finely fashioned
Seductively silken emerged
To join him
In
The Dance

Eyes met
In the movement of lips
Spoke welcome
While hiding anticipation
Of burning desire
Undercurrent savage
Keeping the beat
Synchronized
To the dance primal

Jokes played
Laughter celebrated
Providing safety
For the shortening of the space
For the two
To become one
Such is the dance

But at times
The dance frustrated
She would step forward
To meet his retreat
While his advance
Was countered
By her simple pirouette
Yet
All the while
Desire built
The pleasure
Of the treasure
Of the subtle caress
That would meet
As his fingers gentle
Graced her cheek
While fevered lips
Met
And were consumed
In the heat
Of the unspoken
The press
Of the two
As hands traveled
In exalted exploration
In the glory of
The form of the other
While ripe lips cherished
The taste of succulent fruit
Full and ripe

Such is the dance

Monday, July 1, 2013

A good day

Music: Tracy Chapman Fast Car remix



It was going to be a good day.  The beige chamois slid gracefully over the faultless hood.  Three coats thick it was; not an imperfection in sight.  A gentle caress done more out of reflex than of need.  The paints solid covering glistened and gleamed almost as brightly as the proud owner’s eyes.  A spotless coat and faultless vinyl interior, Benito knew it was going to be a good day.
His competition would be fierce.  As in most car shows, three Camaros were present.  Two of the Camaro completion, were coated with the glimmer of fresh lacquer and stylized with slide up doors.  The third was a classic light blue ’68 convertible.  A church parking lot where held this magnificent collision between the City of God and the City of Man.  Such is America.  Vehicles ranging from ’39 Ford, a ’69 Impala, and even a ’63 VW Van acted as players in the iconography of American Culture.  Crowds slowly milled about, gawking at the bold display of gleaming chrome set before them.  The casual observer would immediately notice that Benito’s car stood out before they might consider it outstanding, for it was a 1974 AMC Gremlin. 
            Now in the list of American icons the Gremlin held a unique position.  It was the last hope of a dying company defiantly struggling to remain independent.  Though it was one of America’s most fuel efficient models, its awkward carriage and checkered dependability plagued this vehicle throughout its eight year run.  It was a car whose ungainliness could possibly only be appreciated by future generations: if only for purposes of kitsch.   But for its owner, she was beautiful.
The mixed crowds paraded past.  While the muscle cars captivated most of the viewers, Benito did have one guest.  An elderly man, pressed red shirt and black pants stopped to gaze at the engine.  With old eyes that still held the memory of what his body used to be able to do he stared contemplatively at the small engine under the hood.  Benito excitedly engaged the man in conversation, however he was quick to find that the gentleman was more interested in talking about cars of his past than of the 74 Gremlin.  When the man walked away, Benito continued to buff the blameless shine.
Though normally positioned by the car, occasionally Benito made trips to the limited shade provided by a covered walkway.  There he visited his family; a wife and child to be specific.  The wife, holding a crown of brown hair in a state of aware absent-mindedness watched over the child.  The child, strapped into a wheelchair, contained the awkward beauty of one mentally and physically dystrophic.  Her contorted wrists rhythmically beat on the buckle holding her to the chair.  A complaint thumping that seemed to be less of an action of escape and more, just as her fathers actions, a simple neurosis to pass pent up energy.   Her brown mongoloid eyes, so rich, so deep, simmered trust abstractedly.  Her crumpled light blue dress blew listlessly in the breeze.  Her crooked smile breathed life into the faded floral pattern of her dress.  Benito went to them, merely to stand by them, with them, to be one of them again, for in his heart he knew that it was going to be a good day.
Over a Public Address system that had been fluent in leading worship for the teens, the judges began to list off the winners.  Returning to his Gremlin, Benito anxiously listened to the results.  Neurotically he continued the slow circling turn with the chamois.  The prizes began to be announced.  The owners victoriously strode forward to accept their acclaim.  With only three awards were remaining, Benito never lost his hope.  Another named was called, another time it wasn't his.  Now only two slots remained.  Benito quickly glanced at his family.  His wife returned his gaze with a slim smile as she fanned herself with one of the programs.  He then looked into the eyes of his daughter.  In these deep brown pools, he saw, for the briefest of moments what looked like clarity.  A clarity paired with all of the love, and all of the trust that the child could give.  In an eternal millisecond Benito was able to see, to know, how proud she was of him.  Perhaps that is why he was shocked when the judges placed an award in his hand.  He hadn’t heard the announcement of his name.  He was too busy enjoying his true prize found in his child’s eyes.  It was a good day.