Tuesday, July 31, 2012

And it was good


Music:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1dmh1cZQuXk (Afro Celt Sound System Persistence of Memory)
 
In the beginning, was the word
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
…and it was good.

He saw her, she saw him
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
For the word burned within both
…and it was good

At first the word
Raged furious intense
Stolen glance
Fleeting touch
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
…and it was good

Trembling steps
Fearful mouths
Awkward in silent whispers, lest the power of the word destroy
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
…and it was good

As the word carried freedom
Total
In the carefree caress
Acceptance
Total
In the longing gaze
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
…and it was good

Perhaps too good

Adjectives and verbs began to clutter
The lover’s literature
Tongues slowly become mute
Perhaps fearful
Perhaps wanting
The word to forget them
If they could only forget it

But

The word would always remain
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful
…and that was good
...and that is good
...and that shall ever be good
As simple, as pure, as it was beautiful

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

I saw a tiger at the zoo


Music:  ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BVaWhqLWMTs&feature=BFa&list=AL94UKMTqg-9BGvGMrZINrfihkgdEpfdhQ ) Eurythmics - Greetings from a Dead man

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I saw a tiger at the zoo

Magnificent beauty incarnate 
Tourists
Ramshackle and ragamuffin
Gawked
While
It paced
Waiting
Waiting
For release

Movement metered
Carefully considered
Rather than release
Each progression
Sensuous touch
Built tension
Envious
Waiting
Waiting
Ready
For release

I saw a tiger at the zoo

Coat shimmered
Shinned
Occasionally allowing
Its keeper
To keep her
Waiting
Waiting
Ready
For release

I saw a tiger at the zoo

Harmless seeming
No teeth displayed
Unlike the ungainly lioness
Or leopards mouth agape
Biding time
Using thin black line
To hide ivory daggers
All the while
Claws retracted

One look in her eyes
Displayed
Waiting game
Feigned
Taking in all
Seeking information
Or distraction
Anything
To provide
An action

Ready
For release
Waiting
For release
Longing
For release

I saw a tiger at the zoo

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

How long have I been asleep?



Copy and open in new browser.  Music: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXIJSGAWQfE&feature=BFa&list=AL94UKMTqg-9AA5VMn3YvVZXTg2bBqshOP (Spain: Our love is gonna live forever)

            All it took was his touch.  The light trace.  Tenderly he brushed the few stray bangs from her forehead.  Still dressed for work, she had kicked off her heels and fallen asleep on the sofa.  Surrounded by the warmth her body radiated, she seemed so peaceful.  She was so elegant, so beautiful.  He almost wanted to let her catnap continue.  Almost.

While fully dressed on the sofa is not the ideal place for a nap, the fatigue of the day had prompted her mid-day call by the sandman.  Gazing at her, he could so easily see her physical beauty lying on the couch, but he always longed to talk to her.  Though her beauty captivated, it was always her fierce wit and hidden spirit he so admired.  He gently began to brush her cheek, feeling the warmth the body radiates after it has awoke, prompting a gentle purr from her finished by a “How long have I been asleep?”  “Don’t worry about that,” he said,” now that I’m back, you are awake again.”      
Eyes, weighed down by sleep, opened slowly to find the room lit in the half-light of candles.  Though one might expect her to be confused, upon seeing him standing next to the sofa, she broke into a half smile.  “What are you doing here?,” was her sleepy question.  He laughed quietly.  “It’s time for me to be back.”  Looking at the clock on the DVR, “that late already?,” she began to stir.  “I have to….”  He stopped her as he sat next to her, “Don’t worry about it, I’ve already taken care of it.”  She smelled the distinct pinch of spicy peanuts, and garlic lofting in the air.  A definite sign that he had gone to the Chang Mai Grill.  With a knowing smile, “Did you go to CG’s?”  “Now why would I do that,” he responded with a smile as he crouched next to her.  Playing off his game, she began to stir to get up, “Well I guess I better get…,” Stopping her, he relented.  Speaking in a Scottish accent, “Alright now me lass, ya got me.  I got you Thai, jus like ye like now.”  She smiled as she knew what his next words would be, “Lets give us a kiss now love.”  She grabbed the sides of his face and gave him a loving warm kiss.  When the kiss was over he stood up and just looked at her. 

             Seeing her eyes begin to slightly furrow, he asked “is everything alright?” “Ohm, I had that dream again,” she began as she looked into her eyes.  “Again?” he asked as he placed a tender kiss on her forehead.  “Yeah, I was lost in the city trying to find my way back home.  For some reason I had to get back home, but all the streets kept changing.”  Again, she felt the softness of his touch gently brush her cheek.  “Was I in this one?,” he asked.  Her brow furrowed, “I looked for you, I think I saw you, way back in the distance,” she began to run her finger along his cheek “but you were so far away.  So far away.”  “Well, its obvious that that was just a dream,” he said with as he slowly leaned in towards her, “you know I am always close to you.”  Her hands, softly cupped his face.  “I am in your heart, as you, you are in mine.” A silent tear began a gentle trace down the elegance of her cheek.  With a gentle pull she pulled his warm lips to hers.  An eternal moment of unspoken eloquence ensued.  He pulled back to look at her.  He was amazed.  She looked at him, and she knew she was safe.  “You ready eat?”  he questioned as he began to kiss her hand, gently tasting each finger.  “Not yet,” she cooed.  “Not yet?  I thought you wanted Thai?”  “That’s not what I want,”  she said as she pulled his ear close to her mouth.  In a breathless whisper, the words “Whisper to me,” slipped from her mouth.  He turned his head.  Softly kissing up his way to her ear.  Between the kisses to her ear he said “I… will… whisper… if… you… are… awake….”  “You with me aren’t you?” she asked as she gently cupped the side of his face.  “Yes,” he said as his lips began to caress her ear.  “Then I have never been more awake.”  With that said, soft whispers accompanied by soft caresses.  Followed, and the whispers, well the whispers of the soul roared.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Marking circles slow turn


 
So was the dance
Flittering images
Hidden heat
From desperate bodies translucent
Fevered movements
In the shade
The masquerade

Secret World gone Cool
Forever burning hot
Turbulent thaw to separate
What is
And what is not
Marking circles slow turn

She stood
Standing firm
Seeming
Beholding Beauty
Bewitches
Befuddles
Marking circles slow turn

Approach
You don’t know
Was the cry
Or maybe
It was her
Knowing not
Or
Knowing only
All too well
Marking circles slow turn

Fingertips finely fashioned
Layered lacquer red
Tracing touch around
The crystalline edge
Marking circles slow turn

Fox and hound
Is difficult
When both play the fox
Making lies
Somehow truth
In a world desperate
For the desperate word
That lie
In
Marking circles slow turn

While lips moved
Bodies stayed
Yet
Eyes danced
Furious
Longing
Furious
Binds of Cool world straining
Under

Tension for the friction
Of the longing touch
The savage burn
Of consuming lips
Emaciated from
But
Engulfed by
Necessary fiction
Disheveled truth
That in the other
Was the one who had seen them
Accepted them
Totally
For who they were
Marking circles slow turn

Powerful pull
Constant
A drawing undertow
Boiling frozen sea
In this real cool world
Forever
Marking circles slow turn
Forever…
At least
For now
Marking circles slow turn

Sunday, July 15, 2012

1 The Chase


Erandur ran.  He had to.  He had to catch that rabbit. He had to catch that rabbit.  He had to run.  Although he was desperate for Barathon’s love, was even more frightened of his fury. Yes, you read correctly. Erandur’s father was Barathon—the Barathon. His titles were renowned: The hero of Tendor pass, Slayer of seventy Orcs, High Member of the Mythrill guard. Yes… the Barathon. He had come back home to check on Erandur’s younger sister, Gwilwilethel.  She was only twelve-years-old after all.  But she was growing into a magnificent young lady.  She was intelligent, beautiful, graceful, and fair.  A stunning child.  With traits that would have only increased with age... would have.  Perhaps as evidence that she may have been to perfect for this world—she was desperately frail.  She and Erandur were Barathon’s only legacy, all that he had left, after the death of his older brother, TûrinA fact that Barathon, made sure that Erandur did not forget.   Why didn’t he and his wife have more children?  Well that story has much to do with why Gwilwilethel was so precious to Barathon.

To begin with, Erandur’s mother was Adanessa.  She was, of all things, a human.  This explains why Erandur, indeed all his siblings were half-elves.  Now while it was not unheard of for an eleven man to take a human wife, it was rare for a man of Barathon’s stature to do so.  Indeed so rare, that he had to seek the permission of the high council.  All the anxiety, all the fear that built in anticipation of the meeting, had been wasted energy.  It should come as little surprise that with just a single meeting, permission was granted.  That may sound impossible, but if one met Adanessa, it would have been easy to see why he made that choice.  Simply put, she was incredible. 

 A human so beautiful, so gracious in her charms, captivating in wit, and so… so… so endearing—that this mortal woman captured the heart of an eleven mate. An astounding feat when one considers that elves choose only one or two mates during their lifespan.  A span that far surpases that of humans.  Now also, one must understand that she too was captivated.  So much so that she dropped her human name, Addison, so that her love Barathon would have no difficulty in his beckoning for her.  With the response would come reunion and the two could again flow seamlessly into one.

Their union, as their love was epic.  At a curious Wedding of the Four Winds, the marriage was held, not in his house—rather the land where he promised to build their home for her, and all of their offspring.  If that was thought to be romantic, the ceremony itself only magnified Barathon’s love.  The guests included much of Barathon’s guard who intermingled with Adanessa’s relations on the North side.  To the west, ready to receive and shelter the setting sun, stood Adanessa.  Her simple, yet elegant dress was almost outdone only by her beauty and a glorious silver head dress.  At the Eastern terminus where the sun rose stood Barathon, dressed in a simple cloth uniform.  To the south, acting as representatives to give away the intendeds were Barathon’s leader, General Hirgon, and Adanessa’s dad, Oliver.  With the lifting of a green lantern, by the lantern bearer, all parties converged in the middle.  The vows were exchanged with hopes of many children born.  Then, suddenly, just as in the legend of the great councilman Neurion and his eleven elders who brought peace to Celebdale, twelve swans were released to fly free at the end of the ceremony.

The vows must have been powerful, for nine months to the day after the wedding they were blessed with their first born--Erandur’s older brother, Tûrin.  As Barathon had high hopes for this child, he was given the name victory.  A name that seemed fitting as the boy’s power and endurance were remarkable.  But, possibly due to his human side, Tûrin was always a ‘doer’, not necessarily a thinker.  Two years later, their union was blessed with yet another boy, Erandur.  For mere survival with an older brother, it should come as no surprise that Erandur also possessed physical stamina.  A stamina enriched by an exceptional mind.  His thoughts definitely displayed a maturity beyond his years.  Five years later, the final child, enered the world, and this child, Gwilwilethel, had an important story all her own. 

This child would be blessed by elegance.  As if in provision of foreknowledge, throughout the pregnancy, Adanessa carried the countenance of radiant splendor.  Her gentility, grace, supple movements, and gentle words only increased her apparent sheer magnificence.  All in the village were awed by her loveliness, and expectantly waited the glory of the newborn.  Perhaps this would be a reflection of the treasure within.  Perhaps this child would be the most beautiful child in the village.  Or perhaps… just perhaps, in a moment of either sheer pity, or malicious cruelty, the fates allowed Adanessa a fleeting glimpse of glory.

Indeed, Erandur could still remember the day.  That fateful day. 

The day had begun like so many others.  All that the five year old Erandur knew before he was rushed out, was that there would soon be a new baby in the house.  While that was something to be excited about… this gave him time to go to the creek with his friend Dûrion.  For Erandur this was definitely something to be more excited about.  Once there, something fantastical happened.  What was the incredible moment?  He had seen three frogs down by the creek, with his friend Dûrion.  Indeed, he had almost caught one of them.  The giggling, slippery struggle was epic.  Indeed, Erandur was convinced he would have caught him… until in the excitement, his friend Dûrion had pushed him off the rock.  He couldn’t wait to tell his mother of the adventure.  Whistling a merry tune all the way home, he opened the door, to a sight he would never forget.      

A crowd had surrounded his Mother’s bed.  Two female elves desperately frantic in movment cloistered themselves near the foot of the bed.  His father meanwhile sat near his mother’s head.  One hand clutched his mother’s hand, while the other gently and continually matted the sweat from her forehead.  As the eleven midwives emerged from behind a sheltered area that encased Adanessa’s legs, Erandur was shocked.  The aprons and arms of the eleven midwives were covered in blood… so much blood Erandur had never seen before.  Stunned into silence, Erandur stopped his whistling.  This silence was only momentary as his mother began moans of unmitigated anguish.  As the midwives whispered to each other, his father became urgent in his nervous matting of Adanessa’s brow.  He began to whisper into her ear “Everything’s going to be alright Nessa.  Shhhhh… Everything’s going to be alright.”  Erandur, in a moment of confused concern, softly muttered “Is everything alright Mama?”

Suddenly aware of the presence of Erandur, while still focusing on his wife, Barathon yelled, “Get out Erandur!”  An action that was in sharp contrast to Adanessa’s feeble and pained attempt to limply stretch an arm.  In her moment of pain, she longed to comfort her son… her Erandur.  Well even this diminutive gift was stopped by a midwife who knew that Adanessa needed to preserve all energy that remained.  This of course, provided little solace to the confused boy who could only murmur, “But Mama…,”
This however was more than the frustrated Barathon could take as he stood helpless as his Adanessa was fading.  Only tilting his head towards the midwives Barathon ordered “Get him out of here!”, before turning back to his wife and softly saying, “It’s okay Nessa, keep pushing,….”  In rapt obedience, and ever watching her patient, a midwife quickly moved to escort the young child out.  So urgently did she respond that she did not even wipe the blood from her arm.  Blood with its staining sink, was quickly absorbed by the fine fibers of Erandur’s shirt when the nurse’s hand attempeted a hurried guidance.  An exit which had almost been acomplishShe had barely opened the door when a blood curdling shriek filled the room.  As Adanessa began to howl in pain, the standing midwife anxiously cried for the other to return to her station.  With a shove on the back, Erandur was thrust out as the door slammed behind him.

For two minutes Erandur stood.  Frightened and confused, he didn’t dare move.  It could cause something.  Something that might complicate whatever was happening inside.  With his only source of information arriving from the cacophony of sounds emerging from his house, Erandur only caught a glimpse of the chaos.  Cries, moans, thrashing… and then… silence—an agonizing silence that lasted more than thirty seconds.  An epoch stretched to an eternity for a five year old boy.  What is going on Erandur wondered utterly confused. 

A reflective moment broken suddenly by the sharp piercing wail of a newborn.  It siren boldly announcing an arrival.  The advent of a child thrust from the warm but dying sanctum of its mother’s womb, and propelled into the cold reality of life.  One minute later, an expressionless midwife, opened the door.  At first, Erandur’s she blocked entry as she wiped the blood from her arms with a cloth.  As she moved aside, Erandur could see that something was wrong.  His mother lay motionless.  Her father, having thrown his body across her was sobbing.  Sobbing that exceeded that of the newborn baby.  Wrapped in a cloth, the baby was swayed back and forth by an anxious midwife.  This newborn appeared so tiny—so frail.

The midwife holding the baby nervously moved next to Barathon.  Wrought in anguish, he remained over his wife.  Whispering into her ear, fixing her hair, and, before he stood, closing her eyes.  Preparing himself, he turned to look at the baby.  All the grounding in the world though, would not have prepared Barathon. 

For the beauty, the magnificence, the exquisite frailty of this child, broke Barathon’s heart.  This child would be a living testament to Barathon’s most valued treasure Adanessa.  As he carefully accepted the baby, the midwife notified Barathon that it was a girl.  As he looked deep into the diminutive yet perfect eyes of this faultless child, Barathon was awestruck.  With one of his long gentle fingers, he stoked his daughters face.  For two minutes there was no movement in the house, no sound uttered, save the intermittent smacking and cooing of the babe.  Suddenly, Barathon clutched the baby to his shoulder, and as he rocked it to and fro, gently spoke, “I shall name thee Gwilwilethel.”  Then pulling the baby far enough away so that he could look into her eyes, “For you, my precious gift from Adanessa, are my butterfly, my beautiful, tender, frail, butterfly.”  This being said, Barathon looked at his wife, and began to cry.  Indeed so deeply did Barathon love his passed wife, that five years later, when the council voted that a mating of need, or a marriage to produce more children, would be acceptable, Barathon rejected their plan.  He had his sons, his memories of a precious wife, and his butterfly.

Growing up was difficult.  Being in a military family is never easy.  The father, especially one of Barathon’s rank, could be called out at any moment.  Now when Adanessa was still alive, she was the support system.  However with her passing, the brothers and Gwilwilethel were usually passed off to the families of one of his father’s soldiers.  But, when Tûrin reached the age of twelve, it was decided he was old enough to take care of his ten-year-old brother, and five-year old, sister.  Needless to say, with the extra responsibility, the kids in this family were forced to grow up fast.  So with the passing of his older brother, Erandur took full responsibility over the care of his 9 year old sister.  So three years later, by the time his sister’s sickness began the extra addition of also being nursemaid, presented little difficulty.  Indeed, his father was returning soon to check up on his little butterfly—to make sure of Erandur’s care.

So in preparation for his father’s arrival, beyond all else he was doing, Erandur took most of the responsibility. He had arranged for the soups, the greens, and to surprise his father, his favorite dish—mutton. Five rabbits had been caged for the occasion. In bringing the cages into the house however, one of the cages tettering balance came crashing down.  His laden arms unable to stop the svelt movement, the rabbit raced through the freedom that the open door provided.  Erandur feeling the fool, hastily set down the other cages.  Although at seventeen he was on the cusp of manhood, beneath he was still a clumsy teenager.

Now the escape of this one rabbit may have gone by unnoticed. Indeed, now that it had escaped Erandur had wished it would have gone unnoticed, but his sister had made that impossible. How? She had written her father a letter. In that dispatch, so proud was she of her brother’s labor, so excited was she about the celebration, she listed out the entire meal to her father. Erandur knew that rather than praising his efforts, his father, the oh so great Barathon would once again just find another shortcoming. In other words he had to find that rabbit.

Through the forest he ran. Branches ripped at his face and arms as he tracked the movements of the frustratingly small animal. Then he saw his opportunity. The rabbit ran into a cave. Relieved that he finally had the animal cornered, Erandur slowed to a walk and caught his breath. As he walked towards the cave he looked at his surroundings. He had never been in this part of the forest before. It certainly was beautiful; he would have to remember this spot. After all one of these days, he might just want to come back. After glancing around his surroundings, he walked towards the mouth of the cave.

“Here little bunny, bunny, bunny.” Erandur said before he beginning to mimick the tiny grunts of the bunny. Entering the cave, Erandur glanced at his surroundings. The cave was a deep one. Indeed the rocky cracks and scraggly floor continued well beyond his elven vision. Erandur was not worried; he would use his gifts of eleven sight, and eleven smell to catch that…. Wait. Erandur sniffed deeper. What was that smell.
Unsheathing his dagger, Erandur turned to face the scent. It was a scent he had smelt traces of before…possibly.  Although foreign, his nostrils were desperately confused.  On one hand, the trace in the air seemed to trigger an olfactory memory of danger.  At the same time, however, this same scent was strangely and desperately comforting. A brilliant twist of floral and earthy aromas filled his nostrils. His curiosity piqued, he knew that he would have to remember whatever creature this fragrance represented. For the scent of the Rabbit was somehow intermingled.  A light scuff on the floor signified that whatever that scent was, was stealthily approaching.

“Who goes there?” Erandur challenged the darkness.  Erandur could hear gentle, almost muted movement in the background.  Erandur nervously griped the pliant leather handle of his dagger, “Who goes there?” Erandur cautiously demanded.  Suddenly, to his left came a shocking reply.  “Who goes there,” the disembodied voice responded with a glorious sing song tone. This was followed by a bewitching laugh. Erandur was now totally confused. Confused and caught off guard by the mystery, Erandur bumbled out “Err…umm…yes, who is it?” Erandur waited for a response.  The reply he received only furthered his confusion.  The faint scurrying of feet in the distant darkness.  Perplexed, Erandur again gripped his dagger, “Hello?” he voiced to the darkness to the left. 

The response he received was totally unexpected. Now the elegant voice emerged from the darkness directly to his right, “Greetings to you, my visitor.”  Erandur spun to engage this mystery, to try to catch a glimpse of that which baffled him.  From the darkness, a shadowy figure softly began to reveal itself.  As the figure slowly moved into his sight, all of Erandur’s bewilderment changed into captivation.  For a figure so glorious, so elegant, and so enchanting emerged from the shadows.  It was an elf, an elf like he had never seen before. She appeared to be only two inches shorter than he.  Dressed in a plain appearing, but elegant, white under dress, with an open front black overdress.  On her head she wore an elegantly crafted sliver headband.   Her short white hair contrasted in beautiful elegance to her dark skin of her sharp jawline. The intensity of the gaze from her white eyes struck Erandur to the very core. 

Although taken aback, he knew he still had to appear unchanged.  But to approach, he had to find something to talk about.  A feat made almost impossible by her bewitching beauty. Taking his eyes off her captivating face, he fumbled to place the dagger back in its scabbard as he tried to absorb more of this new exotic vision before him.  It was then that he noticed that which he had sought—the rabbit.  She held it in her arms gently stroking its coat.  Now armed with a topic for discussion, he intently approached.

“Greetings, my names Erandur,” Erandur said as he stepped forward with extended hand. She met his step with an advance of her own. “Good meeting you Erandur, my name is Ireth.” she said continuing to pet the rabbit in her arms.  She gazed upon Erandur’s extended hand with an impish smile.  Erandur continued to hold his hand extended.  Glancing again into his eyes she tentatively began to extend her own.  When their hands met the welcoming warmth served to assure each other of the refuge to be found. Erandur looked up into Ireth’s eyes again. “Well me lady, it seems you have captured my rabbit,” Erandur, leaned forward to take back the rabbit. “Uh not so fast Mister,” Ireth replied as she drew back, “I’m the one who has him now, so I guess he is my rabbit.”

Believing she was joking, Erandur placed his hands on his hips, “Such inscrutable logic…well what if we work a quid pro quo—this for that.” Intrigued, Ireth drew closer to Erandur, “Humm…what could you possibly give me that would make me give up this rabbit.” Erandur, transfixed in her eyes, said “Tell you what, I’ll give you some of the mutton, and I’ll bring back the fur for you.” Ireth coquettishly took a step back.  A step so small—so slight, that it would be barely discernable…unless you were Erandur who picked up on every clue.

“I don’t know Erandur, that sounds like a good deal, but how do I know you will come back?” Erandur started to feel his pockets while he joked, “What after knowing me for a few moments, you don’t trust me?” Ireth giggled and slightly moved forward, “I’m waiting Erandur.” “Now hold on…hold on…” Erandur could find nothing in his pockets and started patting around his body. Ireth shifted back, “Well if you can’t offer…. Wait!”  Ireth pointed to a ring on Erandur’s hand.  “I will give you the rabbit, if you leave that ring for me to hold till you return.”

He took a ring off his finger. She wants this ring.  This ring.  Erandur hesitated.  This was the ring his father had given him. Well actually it was a ring that his Mom had given his Dad, and his Dad gave to Tûrin and after… well after his passing, Barathon had given it to him.  Actually the moment of the gift was on his fifteenth birthday. 

He had struggled with his brother’s death for more than three months. His father was also grieving the loss.  He still remembers that day.  The party had gone along smoothly.  In the solace of his friends where he could take refuge in the meshing out his emotions he had made some progress.  Indeed, when he returned to his home that evening, he had forgotten some of the pressures, if only for a moment.  He opened his door and saw his father seated by the fire.  “Hey Dad,” Erandur quietly said from the doorway.  “Hello Son,” Barathon said as he gazed into the fire, “it’s time for your gift from me.”  Erandur quietly moved towards the fireplace, remaining silent until he stood next to his seated father.  Looking at his father’s face he could see evidence of fresh tear trails that flowed down his cheek.  While Barathon’s right hand wiped the trails from his right cheek, the left hand was tightly gripped, around…around something. 

Gently Erandur placed his hand on his father’s shoulder, “Father.”  Barathon continued to look into the fire.  “Dad?”  Erandur uneasily questioned as the sense of foreboding rose in him.  The two then remained fixed, with Erandur quizzing gaze at Barathon while he…he merely stared into the fire.  This frozen moment lasted for two minutes, until finally Barathon spoke, “Fifteenth birthday….”  Barathon brought his right hand to his face to wipe his eyes, ending by pinching the bridge of his nose between his thumb and index finger.  “Fifteenth birthday…You know who else had a fifteenth birthday, Erandur?”  Erandur’s heart filled with dread.  He knew they were about to enter a form of the same conversation they experienced ever since the day after Tûrin’s funeral.  “Tûrin, Dad.  Tûrin had a fifteenth birthday.”  Barathon moved his hand up, rubbed his head twice, then with eyes closed, brought his hand to his forehead to rub it twice with his ring finger.  “Yes.”  Barathon continued to rub his forehead silently while Erandur anxiously awaited the end of this haring.  Stopping his rubbing, Barathon now leaned his head into his hand and continued his speech, “Anyway, on his fifteenth birthday, I gave him a very special ring that…” at this point in his speech, Barathon had to stop to compose himself.  When his soft reaction was fought back, Barathon continued, “…your mother, Adanessa, had given me.  It was very important to me, and your brother knew it.  Everyday he wore it Erandur.  Every day….”  At this point Barathon stopped to look into the fire, and Erandur, now crestfallen, joined his gaze into the flames. 

Erandur knew his father was right.  He remembered how proud his brother was of that ring.  How daily he wore it, and once a week, even if it was not dirty, he would lovingly polish and clean it.  His father’s sudden movement staggered Erandur back into reality.  Standing, but still looking into the fire, Barathon now softly began to pound his fist into the mantle.  “So zealous was he about wearing it Erandur that it was still on his abandoned body when my guard brought him back to Celebdale.”  Barathon’s fist now increased its tempo and power in its beating of the mantle, as he began to clench his jaw.  These words struck Erandur harder than any fist could have.  For the next few moments, both stood transfixed by the fire, while Barathon’s fist maintained a steady rhythm against the mantle.  When it finally did slow, and stop soon thereafter, Barathon raised his left hand to the mantle.  “Anyway Erandur, Happy Birthday.” Barathon said as he opened his left hand, turned and prepared for bed.  All without looking at Erandur.  Erandur, reached up on the mantle, and put the object on his finger.  He knew what it was.  It was Tûrin’s ring.  He vowed he would wear it, not so much for his father, but rather in memory of his brother.   

Now this ring was to remain a hostage.  Erandur hesitated before handing it over. From appearances, the ring appeared to be quite plain.  It was an unadorned, uncomplicated simple silver ring.  Appearances however, can be deceiving.  Engraved on the inside, however, was a message: "Rinn amin."   So despite the history behind the ring, Erandur knew this Ireth was too intriguing to loose.  Not only that, but he could not, disappoint his father.  So Erandur began to show the ring to Ireth.  “See this ring says I will return to you.” Erandur said, as it was too big for her svelte finger, Erandur took off his silver chain and hung the ring on it. “Wear this around your neck, and it is my promise that I shall return to you.” Erandur then placed the necklace around her neck. Ireth picked up the ring and looked at it. Turning it over in her hands she looked up at Erandur smiled and said “Now Erandur, how do I know it is not me that is supposed to return to you.” Erandur, emboldened by the fact they were still talking said “No Ireth, this message is my vow. My vow to you, I will return.” Ireth now stepped close to Erandur, “Well Okay Erandur, you’ve convinced me, you get your rabbit back, and I better see you in two days with that fur and mutton.” She reached out and rubbed his arm. “I’ll have that fur and mutton for you tomorrow.” Erandur said as he fought to keep the rabbit under control. “Well alright then, Erandur, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Ireth said as she escorted Erandur to the door. “Until tomorrow Ireth, it was lovely meeting you.” Erandur said as he walked out the cave mouth.

The struggling rabbit in Erandur’s hands made little difference. He was on top of the world. On top of the world…for about two seconds. Then he began to ruminate over the conversation. “Lovely meeting you…quid pro quo, who the heck talks like that?” “She must think I’m an idiot.” Ahh but her laugh…her eyes…her voice. Ireth what a glorious name. I found a way to come back tomorrow.

Little did Erandur know, but in the cave Ireth was feeling similar feelings. She had no idea that elves like Erandur existed. His look was so unique. His muscles were larger than that of the average elf.  His long brown hair beautifully hung from his head.  His shoulders were broader, legs thicker, step surer.  She knew he would keep his word, she knew he would return on the morrow. She was happy. Erandur, she thought, Erandur. Absent-mindedly she began to twist the ring that hung around her neck.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Time is a river

Music (Copy and open in a new browser) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7NdBIA4zJg&feature=related Now we are free - Gladiator soundtrack


Time is a river
Not a stone
Eternal forward press
Searching for home

Had to hear
Hear her
Just to know
Hear her
Just to feel
Hear her
Just to…
Only to…
Hear

Hear
Her

Arms reached out       
Christmas Truce
Fevered war where
Cold combat disguised
The eternal burn
Savage, fierce
Underneath

Forever burn

Weeping angles
Stifled wings
Bound the holy
So the two could approach
Without fear of seeing
Behind

Or even
Fully in front

Stepford stasis
Clever lad
All is well
Never bad

A necessary fiction
Transgressions ignored
Dying light
Angles hands slipped
Leviathan waking
Actions quick

Hand stretching to the darkness
Ghost of a touch
Faded note on crumpled paper
"Never stop writing"
Simpler words
Never meant
So much