Sunday, September 29, 2013

The Troubador

Lou Reed and Suzanne Vega: Take a walk on the wild side/Tom's Diner remix

"What?" he yelled as he battled against the noisy interior of his 1967 Volkswagen Beetle. He was at a signal on the access road. The signal that stood right next to a once magnificent edifice. A monolith erected in order to bring a professional Basketball team to San Antonio. An abandoned home.  It wasn’t always that way.

Sacrificing all in the hopes of future glory, the abandoned land of Viva was traded on nothing more elusive than hope. An architectural triumph was constructed known as the Alamodome. Yes we built it, and they came. San Antonio landed a professional basketball team; The San Antonio spurs. So for 5 years glory and life lived at the stadium. Then the owners no longer had use for this old area. Now they wanted a new one built with more skyboxes. So the Alamodome, once home to NBA champions, was abandoned.  Glory days long gone it was relegated to the hope of the occasional High School Band competition. So in the shadow of the abandoned home of dreams, stood its personification—a vagrant holding a crude cardboard sign. No doubt to someone, somewhere, he also once had a future filled with hope, filled with promise...and then something, who knows what, simply happened. How it changed and what it changed remained unanswered.  The only known was that it did bring change.  Etched on the flimsy sign he bore, written crayon no less, was a simple sign "$".

The vagrant, a little dirty, stood on the corner waving to all passersby. His worldly possessions, which included a sleeping bag, were all collected into a green military sack near his feet. A mangy black dog affiliated in a loose confederacy with the human, sat in the shade under the bridge.  The driver saw this man well before he approached the intersection. The driver wanted an easy day. He had no money, he had no energy, and he just wanted to get home. As such, he hoped to make the light. Hopes that were dashed when, just as in fall, the green turned to amber. Slowing down the bug he continued the smile at the pedestrian. All the vagrant did was smile back. In some form of mute understanding, and possibly grace, he even lowered his cardboard sign. Then this troubadour began to mutter something. The driver, confused by the noise couldn't understand so he yelled out "What?"

Smiling the vagabond continued in his mutterings.  Intrigued, the driver rolled down the window of his bug, 10 revolutions of the handle to be exact.  While this open window to the world did increase the volume of his engine, it did however allow the musings of the drifter to be heard.  What were the words of wisdom:  “Couldn’t get it outta third gear.”

Perplexed, unsure both of what he had heard, as well as wanting to make sure he heard what he heard, the driver, replied “What?”  The vagabond repeated and expanded: “Couldn’t get it outta third gear.  I had a friend who had a bug, not as nice as yours.”  The driver nodded as both an agreement that, yes his bug was nice, and to show the conversation intrigued him. 

“We were in Corpus,” he continued, “he let me drive it down the road, and I was going great.”  Then the troubadour began to make shifts on a gearshift that existed, and depressed and raised his foot on a clutch pedal that existed, even if it was only in his mind—it existed.  “First,” his hand moved to second as his foot engaged and released the clutch. “Second” herein the bodily movements followed.  Apparently this was successful, for the very next word yelped was “Third” with accompanying movements.  But then, true to his word, when he yelled “Fourth” his hand on the gearshift was unable to find it, despite the fact that he had engaged the clutch.  Looking back at the driver, the wanderer concluded his tale with the summary statement “Couldn’t get it outta third gear.”

Through this simple tale of non-sequetor, the driver found he felt camaraderie with this man.  It could have been his complementary acknowledgement of his bug.  It could have been the bind of the beetle brotherhood.  Or… oops, the driver couldn’t dwell on it.  He was at the behest of a diminutive electric device.  A traffic signal.  It stood as a centurion demanding obedience for the sake of social order.  It had changed to green.  As the driver he must go.  He said goodbye to the vagabond soul, engaged a clutch, while his hand found a first—both of which existed.  On his way to the next sentinel, I mean traffic light that would once again stop his journey, the driver reflected.  The story may have been a bit jabberwocky, but he hoped that he would see him again on his return two days later.

Two days later the driver had found himself on the same access road.  As the road began to decline to the underpass, he found himself looking eagerly to hear from the minstrel.  As more of the horizon was revealed on the decline, he discovered his friend of the road was there.  Well, he was there, his bag was there.  But the sign was gone; whatever loose confederacy had tied him to the dog had been torn asunder.  When someone does not have a lot, the absence of anything is noticed. 

This time the changing of the lights displayed a full year.  A green spring through the fall amber and winter red were all warmly greeted.  This halt in the schedule gave him the time to show his care, by inquiring about the absences.  Just as in the prior conversation, this one also transcended the transfer of capital.  “What happened to your sign?” the driver asked with genuine concern.  The driver was told, “Well the Cops came yesterday.”  Curiosity piqued the driver listened as the man continued, “They gave me a choice, either I could throw away the sign, or they would take me to jail.”  Laughing, the man said “…and I guess you can tell what choice I made.” 

The driver, glad to see this man live his pursuit for freedom, reminded him of the consequences, “Yeah, but they would have fed you.  Do you have enough food?”  To this, the man, like the frontier American mythos, non-chalet replied, “I got ways.”  “Well what happened to your dog?” the driver continued while he also began to look at the signal, as if he could ask permission for the light to stay until the conversation was complete.  “About the dog,” the man answered, “like I told you, the cops came yesterday.”  As if it knew that it had held time long enough, the signal now changed colors.  The driver, willing to comply, both said “Bye now,” as well as waved to the man left behind.  In his rear view mirror he saw the man continuing the wave until he had passed over the next hill.

The next time he was on the access road, even though it was only three days later, the weather had turned cold.  Upon the horizons revealing that the man was still there, the driver was excited to see him.  The traffic signal obliged by ensuring it was red.  This time the man, the driver, asked the man, the troubadour, if he wanted a cigarette.  The troubadour said no.  The driver, concerned due to the weather, asked the minstrel if he needed a ride to a shelter.  The vagrant said he would be good.  The driver queried further.  “Well we stay in an abandoned building that’s haunted.”  The driver was taken aback, “Haunted?”  The minstrel continued, “Yeah, the ghosts like me, and because it’s haunted the cops stay away.”  Well, the driver thought to himself, that’s pretty sound logic.  “You sure your okay…got enough food?” the driver, who begged to help, was refuted.  “No, I’m fine.”  The signal was merciless this time as it changed.  Boldly announcing that the conversation should be finished as drones must work.  The driver, however, rebelled.  If only by staying just a second longer, “You sure everything is okay.”  “Yeah,” the man said, “everything ‘ll work out, it always does.  Life takes care of itself my man, takes care of itself.”  With that the driver, encouraged by the horns behind him, said goodbye.

The driver was determined.  The next time he would be on the access road before Christmas Break.  He had decided to bring some canned food he was going to be donating to a food drive and cutting out the middleman.  He had even bought a manual can opener to further assist the sage he had come to know.  Boldly he passed over the hill, only to find—his horizon empty.  The man was gone.  But in the drivers mind, he lived still.   

On his trek home the driver reflected on the man.  The speaker of gibberish who was also a speaker of truth.  A man in motion who stayed just a bit talked to another man in motion who stayed just a bit.  By taking time out of their lives the two friends of the road had been able to come to a deeper knowledge of the other.  The driver would give thanks this Thanksgiving, and to make sure others gave thanks, that food, went to the food bank. 

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

My Coquette

Sting: Lute

My Coquette
Dances in
The moon
Softly
Half lit heavy hung
Appearing in
An afternoon sky
For only those who know
For her treasured who look
Will see
Her
Cleverly crafting
Her
Stealthy smile
For them
Fozen in
A subtle grin
That only she knows
That only she shines
Upon her beloved
Whom she calls
Who are enthralled
To see
And bask
In the tendril truth glimmering
In her shimmering
Reflection light
But who’s light
Reflects the life that
Emboldens
To dance
In the half light of an Afternoon sky
My Coquette

 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Carry on


 
David Bowie and Gail Ann Dorsey: Quicksand
 
The poets realm
Sings staccato
Relying
On the buying
Of imagery
To state the pain
Of
Ruddy Potemkin villages
Set for her majesty
To consume
To pillage
The comforting lie
While a mix of words
Spoke to silence
Might return
The violence
That crushes
Complete

Searing pain under control
What little control
Is to be had

Vision blinded
Blinded
Yet seeing all
As dancing apparitions
Disguise
The facts
That we are charlatans all
In a world
Created
By we
In a masquerade
Where only
Facades are played
Carry on
Carry on

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Wireless Contact



Wireless contact
My calls unanswered… 2 months, 1 week
Don't think I notice
But I do
Til
Sunday at three
My son Sam
Called for me

Though he was supposed to spend summer
Didn’t happen
Mom kept back
But I digress
All of my grief
In the brief
Didn’t matter

Sam full laughing response
Quick lines inform
Will call back
Later
“Looking forward” reply
Now
But
Before
Contact broken
“Dad,”
Urgent influx
Only a parent would know
“I love you.”
As radio waves dissapate
Carry my reply,
“I love you too.”
He didn't return the call later
Don't know why
Doesn't matter
For words were passed
However brief
In

Wireless contact

Monday, September 9, 2013

Is that sun setting, or is it rising?

Bruce Springsteen: The Wrestler

Is that sun setting, or is it rising?
Tempest brews in questioning eyes
Relying
Dying
For an answer
Anything

In
A country of beginnings
July 4th celebrates independence
Final victory forgotten
Did it happen?
Or does the war still rage
In
Days of infamy all
So goes the dance
Now let us see if we can keep it
Can we?
Do we dare to take a chance?
On ourselves
When
Huddled masses yearn to breathe free
While
Glittering prisons meet rotting schools
Producing fools
To rush piles of leaves as an
Unending autumn
Waits for spring
As
I-pods replace
Debate
In halls of knowledge
Class combat sophmoric
Finding that the key
To victory in
Disorders grant exemption
Sanctified salvation
For their one
To be
First among equals
For there is no equal
In the land of divide and conquer
Community lost
Forget the cost
King killers demand
Royal treatment
Community lost
Forget the cost
Wal-Mart is open
24/7
Technology to separate
Divide and conquer
In the glory of the one
Passion found banal
Amongst us all
You can look
But don’t touch
Touch, but don’t feel
For that might make it real
Then you might notice
The silent steal
Save
The individual
Who declares independence
From independence
And builds self
Through the construction of others
Penance?
Perchance?
Do they even have a chance?

Is that sun setting, or is it rising?

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Sweet Soft


 
Sweet soft she spoke
As his tantalizing trace upon her thigh
Evoked
Comforted closure
Of her eyes
Followed by
An open invitation
For a moment
No disguise

The flame smoldered

In haze
Vision became clear
As
She could be she
And he could be he
If only for a moment

The fire grew

Sweet soft she spoke
Kisses comforting
Began
Fanning flames
Matching rise
Of heated lips
Patient persistence
Toward prize

The fire danced

Arching press
Raptured response
For the moment
Where she was she
And he was he
As

The fire consumed all

And in the staggered sigh
Of a steady return
Sweet soft she spoke
So soft
So sweet

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Lost Autumn Moon




Little talks
Of frozen time
As the two basked
In silhouette light
Of a lost autumn moon

Words longed
In rising rhythm
To speak
Eyes desperate to see
Lips made heavy
From words held back
Though
They must be spoken

Yet
Action
Would come
When the time was right
Til then he waited for her
In the silhouette light
Of a lost autumn moon